well hey there livejournal! 

I dunno why I'm updating today and never on any other days, Today was an amazing day though! I just loved all of it! I got to sleep till like 7:30 which is pretty late for me considering it's usually 6:30 on school days and 5:30 on saturdays for work. But anyways. I left my house at 10:30, picked up Molly, and went to Courtney and Caylee's house, then we picked up Nick, then we went to LIDO BEACH!!!

Lido is the best! we got there at about 1:15 or so...drove around for 20 minutes for a parking spot...never had so much fun looking for a spot! we laid out until 5. The weather was perfect! Alittle cloudy at first, but that all cleared up. The sun wasn't too hot either. After the beach we ate dinner at Cha Cha Coconuts...which is the best restaurant ever even though the service is horrible and the food is just alright...afterwards we got ice cream at Scoop Daddy's....sat in the middle of the circle to eat it...then took advantage of the "Yield to Pedestrians" rule. 

Tailgating and Roadrage on the way home is fun too. 70 is just a suggestion anyway.

seriously...

I can't stay here if you're not here, too.
You all need to introduce me to someone new...

I need a lover who won't drive me crazy....

School today was pretty good. Not for the fact that it started today because I'm already over having Calculus first thing in the morning... But school isn't that bad. I think we counted that senior have like 80-something days left...whoooooo! So besides that I was told that I seemed alot happier than normal by more than one person. I guess I am...things are ok. Like really truly....things could be BETTER....but I'm not gonna let those get me down... Plus I'll be able to work at things better if I stay on top of my mood... ya know?

I'm very optomistic about this so called 2006. lol. let's do this.

"well I'm alright, alright, feel alright,
never been better in my life,
you know the score...
Well I'm just fine, I'm fine, feelin fine,
a regular sawed-off valentine,
that nothing more..." 

There's no getting away from stereotypes. They help us get through the day. Because it's comforting to be able to look at someone and judge them by what they're wearing or how they're acting and be able to put them into a catagory. Because now we know all the basics about that person. even if what we THINK we know is COMPLETELY wrong. We don't care. If we put the person into a bad stereotype, or one that we don't associate with, then we're never going to get to know that person anyway. So mission accomplished.

if we put someone into a positive stereotype in our opinion. We're gonna  want to get to know the person. and we'll get to know them and again, the stereotype has proven useful because all it really tells us is if we would be able to possibly befriend the person or not.

None of us are better than stereotypes. They aren't a good thing. But any of you who claim that you don't stereotype is full of shit. There isn't any way that you can say you've never looked at someone and judged them in the first 5 seconds.

A flaw of society....and a flaw of each of us.

Comment Please.

so we have this week for exams and then we're done. Halfway through senior year. Lemmie tell ya it's nothing but stress. And you're all alone no matter how many people you surround yourself with. It's hard to stay on top of it all sometimes. I'm trying my best. I need your help.

Winter break should be good. Lots of small things planned. Some trips to Lido Beach with the usual gang. We started going every month last December...so we're sticking with our tradition. maybe a trip to Disney once or twice. I want go to Magic Kingdom to actually enjoy it. I haven't done that in years.

hopefully everything will continue to fall into place. that is if they don't fall from me.

it felt like winter today....it made me really happy on the inside. it was cloudy, but it was definately a winter sky. The temperature was perfect. The sign on Bloomingdale said it was 64* at about 3pm. That makes me smile too. I got home and laid on the living room floor next to the Christmas tree with my dog and just sat there listening to christmas songs on Magic 949.

I had nothing but happy thoughts in my head. ok, there might be a few not so happy thoughts, but I pushed them aside to think about the good things in life.

I love the holiday season.

[	Current Mood	|	contemplative	]
[	Current Music	|	Warehouse - Dave Matthews Band	]

um.....soo fuck this shit.....like F'n A!!!! I'm fuckin tired of it all...everything. I'm tired of the same ole, same ole....and i'm tired of being blamed for it. I'm over being the one that's "not respecting the friendship" or "not being there when I'm needed" cuz that's simply not true. It's the other way around and it ALWAYS HAS BEEN.... but fine, whatever. do what you want. I'm just not gonna take the fall this time.

All i need is a friend to talk to

one who wants to listen to everything I have to say without interupting about their own problems.

I really needed one tonite. Why couldn't any of you tell? what good are you if I have to shout out HEY, I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO TONITE!?

Fuck this shit.

bring that beat back to me again. take me back, take me back, can't catch me, can't catch me...